At the end of the day, what gives you hope?

If someone were to ask you where your hope comes from, what would you say? When nothing seems to be going right, when the day can’t seem to get any worse, where does your mind go? How do you find the courage to keep going when hope seems impossible to find?

That question has been going through my mind for the past couple of days. What is the core of who I am? What drives me to keep going when there’s no hope in doing so?

As an artist, part of who I am is taking my life experiences and translating them into thoughts to share with others. It’s how I make sense of an otherwise senseless world. Sometimes it’s as easy as posting a simple thought online, other times it’s hidden in characters and plots.

I’m at the final stages of editing my epic fantasy book and that question of finding my center resonates throughout. Shenrae, one of my main characters, is young and doesn’t know her place in the world. She’s struggling to figure out who she is in a world that is rapidly changing around her. Kilo, my other main character is older, wiser and has already found his center. He’s grounded firmly in the Shadow ways and is guided 100% by his moral convictions. His struggle is not in finding his center, but in sustaining who he is against a world that is much darker than he can imagine.

One of the themes is never giving up, and facing down your enemy no matter how hopeless it seems. It’s about finding your strength, drawing it from others and holding onto who you are, even when you don’t think you can. It’s about believing that the world will get better and that tomorrow will bring a new day. It’s the core of my novel.

It’s the core of who I am.

When I’m feeling like the world can’t get any smaller, or the skies any darker, I’ve always held onto the hope that tomorrow is another day. Another day to get one more thing done. Another page in my story. Another day for a new adventure.

I never felt I had much to live for growing up, except for the hope that tomorrow would be another day. It’s an ideal I’ve instilled into my work, and one that I hope I can share.

Tomorrow is another day to face down that demon. It’s another day to make it one more step toward whatever it is you desire. It’s one more day to find something beautiful in the world and live life to the fullest extent possible.

What gives you hope?

I Finished My Trilogy! Now What….

I can’t believe the day has come when I can actually say thing, but…..I FINISHED WRITING MY TRILOGY.

Whew. What a long road it has been (and what a long road I still have to go)!

There’s been various places over the years where I’ve documented my struggle with getting that first rough draft down. YouTube being the one that has surived my blog’s death a few months back. I first started this crazy thing back in high school with the intial idea, but then waited until I had a little more life experience to really start writing it. The only aspects that have stayed since that fateful day in 2008 during NaNoWriMo are the names Shenrae, Syrane and Torey and the bonds that the Shadows wear on the forearms.

Other than that, it was all mere practice for this novel. I’m okay with that too.

Over the past month, I’ve been diving into Twitter and living in the writing community there. (If you are not on Twitter and you’re an author, you are seriously missing out on a fantastic, supportive group). I’ve been connecting with others and feeling way better about myself as a writer. I’ve always written by myself, for myself, but really, what fun is that? Writing is meant to be share with others. It’s supposed to inspire people to be better than themselves. It’s supposed to let you escape from the world and take off on this journey with people you love.

And I want to share that. More than anything, I want to write the stories and characters that have made me who I am today.

My sights are set on self publishing my first novel in the trilogy, Shadow’s Design this Fall. I can’t wait for this new adventure!